But, for the time being...Life has just been hard. It's been really, really hard and I've finally hit my breaking point. I have no doubt that things will eventually get better...because, well, they HAVE to right? I have all the faith in the world that they will.
However, I will be really honest for a minute. Something happened to me and my family yesterday that I am still trying to shake.
I've been crying a lot. I'm talking A LOT. I'll cry at the smallest little things too. I'll be driving in my car and I start crying. I will be rapping to Lil' Wayne and I will feel all those things I've been trying to hold in start welling up in my eyes and I just have to stop and pray.
I know things could always be worse. I know this. I'm thankful and I'm blessed for all the things I have in life. I have so much passion in my heart and I will NOT waste it. This passion keeps me going, and you know that song, "You gotta have faith"...well, let's just say that Drew and I sing it A LOT lol.
But for now...I have to just grow up, grab the bull by its horns and just PRAY and hold on to this crazy ride God has given me.
I wish I could be more blunt and tell you more of what life has given me lately, but for personal reasons and for the respect of my family, I will just keep it vague.
All I ask is for prayer. Prayer for peace. Prayer for understanding. Prayer for the light at the end of the tunnel to make it's way in my direction.
I love you guys. I mean that. And I get it...that's weird because I don't even "know" most of you in real life...but I can't help but feel the love from y'all. I swear blogging is a true blessing and I really do feel like I "know" y'all. I thank God every day for letting me be bored at work one day and start this so called blog. I remember thinking, "What the HECK am I doing? Who is going to want to read yo gibberish Shay!?" And you know what...I never ever EVER in a million years imagined what blogging has done for me. I've actually MET some of you in real life and now y'all are my real life friends and seriously the sisters I never had. Some of you may not know this, but even just a simple little, "Hi" can sure turn my day around sometimes.
I just want to thank y'all for being supportive and for not giving up on me or this blog. I KNOW things are going to get better and that this is just a phase in life. Trust me, I've never really had an easy life. Ever. I know that sounds a little depressing, but honestly, I don't think I would have wanted it any other way. I'm stronger, I'm motivated, I'm somewhat normal ;), and I have learned and experienced SO much in my 26 years here on Earth.
I just wanted to kind of let y'all know I'm doing OKAY and I will be OKAY. I need to focus on my family this week and get things figured out for them. If you pray...please please please, just pray that things get better, and soon. Patience sort of isn't my thing, (HELLO, I AM female!) and so, I guess if things just can't get better yet...you can always pray that patience and I become best buds. I'd be okay with that too. ;)
Love you guys. Mean that. I'll be back to regular blogging very soon. Besides, I have an AWESOME new look coming very soon.
Thank y'all from the bottom of my heart for the prayers from instagram yesterday and for all the text messages and messages I've received. The gift of prayer and concern means more to me than you will ever know. So, please, go give your loved ones a hug today and tell them you love them. Call up an old friend and ask how they are doing. Smile at a stranger. Open the door for someone. Say Thank you. Write a note on someone's desk at work today and just tell them you're thankful for them. Let someone waiting in line go in front of you. The smallest little actions can make a BIG difference in someone's life today. Trust me...