Dannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng. DUUUUUUUUUUUUDE. I know, I know. I think now is where I need to throw in that #SMH you see so often. Shake your heads at me, I'm okay with that. I get it, I get it. :)
I've been absent for good reasons, I assure you. Mostly, busy reasons, but I'll spare you the whole "Sorry guys! My life is insanely busy" speech that I seem to always preach.
That said, WHAT THE HECK IS UP Y'ALL!? Most of you know I am still alive because you might follow me on instagram. (You can follow me here if you'd like.)
So what's been good guys!?
I've been (insert another word besides busy here). Between work, my photography business (shooting weddings, photo sessions, computers breaking, cable modems crapping out, family visiting, baby shower planning, blogger meet-ups, a new gym membership, birthday dinners, re-editing 1000's of photos that I lost (lesson learned) (and by lost I mean I had the originals backed up, but just not the recent re-edited ones, don't you worry), life, I've been really really sleep deprived and sick a lot of days. Fatigue really does a number on your mind, body, and soul. I really am in dire need of a vacation, but it's wedding season and my wallet thinks otherwise. You win some, you lose some right!?
Right now, I'm in a very weird place. I don't really know how to describe it but I guess that saying, "I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place" sums it up best. I'm in a transitional spot in life where it's time to either take leaps of faith and risk it all...or stay in a comfortable spot that I know I'll be okay in, but not happy in. It's really hard because life is scary. Things are scary. Taking leaps are freaking scary.
There is so much going on in my life that I want to share, but I can't yet. Everyone has hardships, some are worse than others, and I'm not saying that mine are AWFUL. They just aren't ideal and me and ideal don't always agree with one another. I'm impatient (yes DDHP, I can admit that) and I want things, and I want them now. I used to always say, "I need a lot of money, and I need it FAST." Well, that has to make you laugh right? Because unfortunately life doesn't work that way for everyone and you have to work your ass off to get what you want in life. And sometimes, even when you work your ass off, you fall short in other areas, and that's where it comes down to the words, 1) Prioritizing 2)Organization and 3)Faith.
Every single day I have something going on. Honestly, I haven't had a day in the last year and a half that I haven't felt stressed or anxious. I'm a "YES" person and I like to please. It's in my blood and I've just come to terms that I will always be this way. It makes me who I am, but I also know that I have to be able to balance myself. Right now I am so all over the place, I'm not even making sense to myself, or to those around me. You should SEE these bags under my eyes! Haha. I know that I have A LOT I need to work on, both personally and professionally. However, in order to do that, I have to make changes in my life. Some may be good changes (hopefully more of these than bad), some risky changes, some really freaking scary changes, some changes that I will get judged for (oh well), and some changes that I just HAVE to make in order to be the person I want to be.
Over the next two months, you will hopefully get more insight on this. Trust me, I am dying to ellaborate. There are just a few things I need to sort out first. :)
But first things first.
Step number one?
I don't know about you, but I'm one of those people that have...and I mean HAVE to have things clean around my house in order to get ANYTHING DONE. It's absolutely a pain in my rear. HOWEVER, I'm like this with a lot of things. If everything isn't in it's place, and that nasty little word, CLUTTER is anywhere around me, I can't concentrate. It's simple as that. And don't for one second think that my house is spick and span clean bahaha, because it's def. not. That would mean I would have to have TIME to do that, and all I've done lately is WORK, WORK, WORK.
Here are a few things I've done recently (baby steps) that have helped me priortize.
1) Make a list. Not a long list, but a list of THREE things I want to do each day. It can be three big things, three small things, or somewhere in the middle. No matter what I put down on that list, it HAS to be done before I go to bed.
2) Clean out your inbox. This is easier said than done. Mine still has about 500 e-mails I haven't even been able to look at (mostly blog comments and you have NO idea how much it bothers me that I haven't responded to each comment, I swear I read them and smile, laugh and appreciate them all). <----I mean that. One thing I've done this past week is unsubscribe to e-mails. You know...those Victoria Secret, J.Crew, Living Social e-mails that come in ALL the time? I unsubscribed to them all and it feels awesome. (Not groupon though haha).
3. From here on out, every 1st of the month, I am going to make goals for myself. Just monthly goals. Anywhere from teeny tiny things I want to change, to maybe completing a book, or finish three wedding edits. It can be the smallest to the biggest things, but most importantly, IDEAL. I'm still adjusting to that word okay? :)
Alright, well I guess I should get going. I've pretty much rambled my heart out. If you have any advice, or insight on prioritizing...I'm all ears. What are your tricks to the trade?! Please share because I need ALL the help I can get. :)
I will be posting more as I have my computer back, but not until I'm caught up on some work. PRIORITIZE. PRIORITIZE. :)
Love y'all so much. (