That is how I feel right now.
Mixed-up, confused, annoyed, yet on a straight path.
I've realized that I restrict myself from writing posts when I am really upset. Whether that be something big, or small. Right now I am just super annoyed. I honestly just wrote a REALLY long post about this so called annoying matter. After I write it out, I "preview" it...Read it. Then I delete it.
Why do I do this...
Does anyone else do this to?
It makes me feel better, like I'm venting to myself, only I'm not calling it out, making it necessarily public. Almost, but not quite. I'm not referencing the annoyance or the problem. I hate when people do things like this just to spite you, or create drama. I am human. Things do upset me, and as much as I wish I could be a rock sometimes, I can just as easily be clay. I have those moments. But then I go back to reality and deal with it. I turn back into a rock...atleast I try to. Whether my annoyance or whateveryouwanttocallit be with a noun...person, place or thing...or idea. I'm making no sense. I think that's how I want to leave it though...
I know that is kind of the point of a blog to write about anything you want, I know. It's an online diary of somesort, yada yada. But I try to focus on the the things in life that make me happy, smile, or laugh. The little things. The "bad" things in my life, I'd rather just "pre-tend" to blog about, write about it, read it, and delete it. That's kind of how life is...only you can't delete.
Thank you blog...for the option of deleting.